You know after form 3, there would come a time for certain where this decision had to be made. For some, it was an easy choice. In my case, it was.
But more than 10 years later, I wouldn't say I completely regretted my choice, but I definitely regretted making the decision based on certain reason. In another word, I regretted the reason.
Back then, and I think it's probably similar now (I'm guessing), the glory of science stream is more emphasized. I think a few years back (not sure bout now), govt actually gave "incentive" to student who chooses science stream.
We need more doctors! We need more engineers! We need more brain !!
If only, someone tells me back then, don't listen to all this crap.
Choose what you feel most suitable for you. Parents, identify you child's best interest, don't succumb to the pressure of pushing your child to other's perspective.
I wish someone had told me that.
But no, I was an "A" student. "A" student should go to science stream. What does an 8A PMR student doing in art stream anyway.
I went on in science stream but I dropped biology and took IT instead. I didn't like memorizing anyway. And I love the computers.
I did great, really. I mean I did what any parent would hope for. No 1 in class for 2 consecutive years, elected treasurer in class, secured a sponsorship with my trial result, even got offered full sponsorship to oversea with 9A1 in SPM.
The question is, where am I right now?
Honestly speaking, I feel like I'm nowhere. I think I was exhausted throughout my years of studying, the constant fear of failing. I did good (not exceptional but acceptable) overseas. I mean I wasn't top in my class but I was the top among the foreigners and I do rank in the first one third of the class.
But when I got back to Malaysia, all that seems.....useless.
Despite sponsored by govt, my degree was quite unknown actually. Oversea, even the banker wowed at my qualification (I went to the bank to retrieve some money and had some chat with the workers there, when they heard the studies I was doing, they were genuinely surprised), but here, I'm just ....mind me for saying this.....I felt a bit of a loser.
I went in to research. Back then, it was what I loved to do. I could spend long working hours in the lab, thinking of solution to problems, reading journals, etc.
However, last year experience dampened my research enthusiasm. Too much office politics involved, I lost my momentum, I lost the reason of doing of what I was doing. I wanted out. But somehow my science degree wasn't sufficient to land a good job.
I was in research for 3 years. Not a single soul told me that they didn't regret taking science. Even if not a lot, at least a little. Especially those from biotechnology background. Cause the job opportunities as scientiest, aren't that many.
Don't be fooled by the numbers of jobs listed in Jobstreet. Each job look for a specific qualification. For example, O&G companies are likely to look for polymer background. Even if you have chemistry degree, screw you for not specializing in polymer, you wouldn't even be ranked as candidates.
And don't even kid me with applying for MPOB, FRIM, IKM, and other gov entities. If 100 graduated, you don't expect all 100 to be employed there. I remembered asking Felda, what kind of job would I get with a master's degree, they told me it would be an executive job, but since I don't have experience in similar domain, they won't accept me, yet I could't apply for lower qualification neither, cause then they would tell me I'm OVER qualified.
So where does that leave me?
Too good to land a bachelor's degree job.
But lack of experience even with a master's degree.
Tell me how to keep my optimism up?
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